Thank you.

I hate to say it but a part of me is doubting those words. I know it's just my negative state of mind though and that you're being sincere. I mean, at least I think so.

I'm getting irritable too today and I'm wondering if this isn't some part of the dysphoric part of hypomania...or some mixed episode because I'm crying so much. Today isn't so much a weird day as more of understanding, at least I think so. I spoke to my pdoc and that helped. Validating some of my thoughts and worries, just as you folks do. In my particular case, it helps though to have that person in real life.

I think that's why I get so weird. It's hard to think about making relationships online. It's hard to think that this is my primary source of emotional support. I mean, I have some family, but none of them seem to be able to give all I need. I need consistency.

But I was also feeling weird because of the lack of sleep. Well, it's not as bad as others have had it. It's just enough to where I struggle to make coherent thoughts or express myself properly. And the irony is that in those moments I just want to scream, notice me! Ya know? But of course, I should say it in a more toned down manner. Well, maybe I could scream in a place like this. Ha!

I'd like to keep this thread going as a record for myself. Today I feel better in the sense that I can make sense, I think. Make sense? :P But this is only for my weird days and replies because I already have a blog and the chat threads for the everyday stuff. Cool?