So sorry Laura. Please hang in there. There is hope in the future.. even beyond the 23rd. Maybe it is some medical reason.. Maybe you should talk to your doctor about getting on anti-depressants until the suicidal feelings and issues get resolved. You are important enough to get some help! Feel free to reach out to any of us..and be sure to talk with your therapist too. The more caring people that you surround yourself with, the better things will get. They will show you how precious you are. Prayers for you.