I cannot even be online without sounding ridiculous. Imagine how life offline for me may be. I wanted to be a doctor equivalent to the pre-accident Doctor Strange. I don't have the brains for it let alone the hands. A ridiculous-looking doctor is not welcome in any hospital. I cannot even be an actor portraying to be a well-reputed doctor, because I haven't even got the looks to be a doctor. On the other hand, there are doctors like who are ridiculously fit, handsome, have a good memory, free from mental illness and are able to be be successful in their careers.
In the particular video I gave link for, I had tears rolling down my cheeks at the scene (it's shown there) where the other doctor says "You saved his life" and everyone on the crowd claps. What further made me cry is that they show the boy's parents being grateful and all.

Now I know it's just acting. But saving people's lives was my dream. I wasn't crying because it was ME wanted the fame, I never wanted fame, I just wanted to be helpful. I didn't want their blessings either, I just wanted to see the patient's face smiling, their family grateful that I saved their loved one's life.

In this world of great harm, people do not have the time to sit there and thank each other for the good that they've done to each other, they just exchange piece of papers and be grateful for that. Doctors are burnt out because of seeing patients. Patients kill doctors and doctors kill patients. I know life isn't how it is portrayed in TV, but I still had hope the work I will do might save one person's life and improve another's.


As Derek Shepherd put it, "It's a beautiful day to save lives."

It was, probably. Everyday, for me.