Day 5 IP. Started Brintellix (an antidepressant) three days ago and bounced right back yesterday. Today I’m flatter though. Still, no suicidal thoughts in two days. Am tapering off Pristiq too. My pdoc wants me to have TMS again and see the IP Psychologist to help me manage strong emotions. Not sure why as I have a great outpatient T but I guess more help can’t be bad. Pdoc doing everything to help me. I think I freaked him out by how serious I was about killing myself. Just over 24 hours After taking my new antidepressant I suddenly got the will to live back and was laughing again. Really weird experience to change so dramatically so swiftly. The nurses and my pdoc seem even more concerned since I have switched.
TMS goes on for weeks so I have asked to do most of it outpatient as I need to get back to work and Life in general. Pdoc wants me IP for a while longer. He doesn’t think I’m safe at all. TMS will be a drag as it goes on for 6 days a week for over a month. It will be worth it if it gets and keeps me stable.