Do you understand why you are scared? Scared to be without him and the support that you once had?

I am so sorry that you are hurting. :-(

Recognizing and dealing with unhealthy therapy is a big problem. The profession as a whole, not to mention individual therapists with their own issues and blindnesses, are not addressing it. They don't "own" it. I think they "should" but apparently they don't. Or don't care. Reality. And clients are getting hurt. I know I did.

Are you doing to try to find another therapist? Or just deal with it on your own? I have found PC and other online and IRL support groups to be more helpful than other therapists about this. Very scary, and the fear interferes with my ability to function well, not to mention other difficulties, and. . .bad therapy is worse.