I am very sorry that you are hurting.

I don't know your entire story, as I haven't read any of your previous posts, but from this one it sounds to me that your T has been behaving unprofessionally and unethically with you for quite some time. As AllHeart suggested, I highly recommend you to contact TELL or AdvocateWeb and get some support from those who have been in the similar situation.

As much as I wish for you to be out of this abusive IMO relationship, you may not be able to end it easily. That's why you need outside support. I hope you'll reach out for help.