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Old Jun 14, 2018, 02:20 PM
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This made me so sorrowful, because you deserve way, way better and you do too to Nikon Anytime you can't be who you are, it is an injury, and it sounds like you have sustained injury to your sense of identity every day of your life, along with the other parts good and bad Skeezyks.

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I'm sorry you are struggling with this. I'm an old man now. But I've had a life-long struggle with gender identity dysphoria. It began before I even have any memories of my childhood. For the majority of my life, I kept it a closely guarded secret, one I fully intended to take with me to the grave. I kept it even through my first serious suicide attempt.

Then I made my second, last & most serious bid to end my life. And, as a result, my secret came out. (I'll spare you the details.) Anyway... as a result of all of this, my wife now knows & I've had a number of less than comforting discussions with mental health professionals. But nothing in my life has changed as a result of it all. After a while, I realized no one really wanted to know anything about my "secret". So I quietly crept back into the closet & closed the door. I'm still in there. But I carry around a boatload of embarrassment with regard to the fact that my "secret" is out there now as well as with regard to some of the memories I have of how it got out there. I wish I had just kept it all to myself.
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Thanks for this!
precaryous, Skeezyks