Hello zahara: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I'm sorry you are struggling with this most difficult situation. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. Please keep posting.

Having read through the other replies here, I know you are being urged to get away from your husband as soon as possible in one way or another. And this may well be the best thing for you to do. I'm guessing though that since you've only been in the U.S. for around 5 years, & arrived as an on-line bride of an older man, you may have little if any support... family, friends, etc. as well as little of your own money if any. Assuming that's the case, I imagine it all makes your getting out especially difficult.

Unfortunately, I don't know as there is a lot I can offer in terms of useful suggestions. I did wonder if you are familiar with the National Domestic Violence Hotline. Here's a link to their website as well as their telephone number:

Home - The National Domestic Violence Hotline

1 (800) 799-7233

I don't have any personal experience with the Hotline myself. But perhaps they can be of some help to you as you think about what to do. My best wishes to you.