Thank you bewise93 for responding. Anxiety is the worst experience outside of psychosis but it's only afterward that i realize how destructive my psychosis has been so I guess anxiety is an improvement but sometimes it is just eating away at any peace in life.

My symptoms were not helped by abilify when I tried it a long time ago. I went on Rexulti after my last episode and haven't had another one, so I believe it is working to prevent manic psychosis. I am on 1 mg now instead of 2. This morning my anxiety is manageable and I am less focussed on all the problems although I sometimes just wish for it all to be over with... all my worries to be over with that is.