Maybe anger isn't so bad when it's compared to all of the other crap in my head. Everyone of my teachers growing up, they were all fixated on getting my anger under control because I had a "problem". Did any of them ever think that maybe that wasn't the issue that actually needed attention? Did any one of them stop to ask why I was angry in the first place? Nope. I was just a bad kid who got into fights and argued with authority. Now, all I want is to be angry so that everything else shuts up. I want to be angry so I'm not scared, so I'm not so down I can't get up from the couch and so I'm not so focused on things I can't control.