Find a stuffed animal that is cuddly....they don't require any maintenance or responsibility.

As for what you are looking for, you will NEVER find that without being discerning. You will continue gettkng the losers you seem to be attracting.

The definition of insanity is continuing to do the same thing & expecting a different result. I think you have proved your results are all the same with this technique.

Learning to deal with loneliness in life with the help of your therapy might be more beneficial to put your energy into.