You can do this Mz. It's not going to be easy for sure. Do what you can to keep grounded and remember, you are not the same person you were when you were together before. You ARE stronger and you CAN do this. Self talk, self talk, self talk.
Draw, paint, sculpt, doodle, watch a tv program that makes you laugh. It's your home and he is a guest (no matter the circumstances, it's still your home) . You can do this. We're here to support you.
((((((((((((Mz))))))))))))))