I am involuntarily committed to psych ward I call home. The worst thing is that the doctors are missing.

As someone who never had a normal childhood and whose parents seem to be psychotic, I never really got to know my diagnosis. Because I would figure out I am going to die prematurely.

I drowned as a child and I felt the world was going to sink. I think I may have depersonalization/derealization because I don't always feel real when I am awake. Sometimes through my eyes I feel nothing is real.

I dealt with depersonalization/derealization by doing nothing and time do its thing. Not a great idea but I am getting help.