I relate to this so much. I skipped my first session ever partly bc I saw the one person it is stressed over and over by my T not to see. I didn't want to lie, but I didn't want to tell him. Unfortunately ( or fortunately) about the second sentence he said was you saw xyz didn't you? I created my own problem, then made it worse.

I wouldn't lie bc then you will just go through a process ad eventually add you lied lol, and she might intuitively know anyway (?).