Yesterday was better. I'm taking metoprolol now for migraine prevention and it also seems to block my body response to anxiety. Still, mornings are worst. And I hope this effect doesn't wear off like the benzo's.

I also figured out the problems in my life giving me the anxiety. I also know possible solutions. I'm scared of the solutions. And it's difficult to do actual action. My way of seeing certain things in life and experiencing them is also problematic. I still have a lot of work to do.