Thanks everyone. No, it's not effecting my current relationship or partner. We're very happy.

A part of it has to do with confronting my ex in April and having lingering thoughts.

Divine, you're right about putting too much weight into someone's words who lies.

And you all are right -- I do have the perspective that it doesn't matter so much now because I have moved on and I am in a far better relationship.

I suppose it only matters to me because I am still angry at myself for wasting SO much money, effort and time on someone who lied to me and abused me.

I didn't have a lot of time to reflect before I started dating again. But I am glad I met my current boyfriend and started dating him when I did. Or else, we wouldn't be where we are now, and I am thankful for that.

My therapist is working with me on my past, but I won't see her again for a couple more weeks.