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Originally Posted by rainbow8
I slipped back a little last session when I got hung up about our relationship again. I sent emails after the session about my heart hurting because our relationship isn't mutual. I also wrote again that I want to die because of my physical pain.
She asked me to call her so I did. She said I'm not physically or emotionally well now. I agree. So she's looking for a group. She says nothing changed in our relationship. She's a professional and my T. She cares about me and feels love for me, but it's not about her and me, but about my connections in real life. Sometimes I try to forget that because she's so warm and friendly. It does hurt my heart though I know she's right. 
Mostly we've been discussing my physical health in sessions. I see the geriatric psychiatrist next week. I hate meds! Trying to adjust to gabapentin for the second time because I need it for my sciatic pain.
Not sure what I want from this thread. No one can help. |
It sounds like two kinds of pain are wearing you down. There has to be something better for your physical pain? I broke my back , and I recall the epic pain, and I see why coping with back pain nonstop would be depressing. Gabapentin just doesn't seem like much of a way to fight back to me. My reasoning isn't solid though- it is bc Gabapentin made my dog wh took it for spondylosis in his back feel weak at a high enough dose to control the pain. Can't they give you something much stronger, and at least give you a breather from the chronic pain?