Have had a bad couple of days, y'all. Let me give you a little "back story". In my family of origin, only my brother (who I would trust w/ my life) and my sister (who is an RN who also has her masters in nursing and has worked psych units before going into administration) know about my DID dx. My mother and step-father only know of the depression dx because I just don't trust them w/ that information. Well, 2 days ago my mother calls me and asks "whats this about about the multiple personalities?" You could've knocked me over w/ a feather. She was very confrontative, and I don't do confrontation well at all, especially w/ her. It seems that my sister "outed" me to her. Why, I don't know. But Mom just kept going on about was I sure that I had this and did I get a second opinion, etc. But then she delivered the clincher. She said that I hadn't been in church for a long time and that she had been concerned for my soul. Had I considered talking w/ a priest and having an exorcism done? This is a well educated woman. She has 2 masters degrees - one in history and one in education - and she thinks that I'm demon posessed! I told her as calmly as I could that, no, I hadn't thought about that and that this conversation was making me very uncomfortable so I was going to hand up the phone now. Then I said "I love you, Mom. Goodbye." and hung up the phone. She called right back - I saw her number on the caller I.D. - but I wouldn't pick up.
I felt so betrayed both by my sister and my mother. Why did my sister have to tell her? I told her not to. It wasn't her decision to make when to tell mom about my dx. And Mom -- how could she think that her own daughter is posessed by the devil! I was so hurt, so shocked that she could even think such a thing, much less voice it to me. It feels like more abuse. I feel victimized again. I just can't take it. Why would she say such a thing? -janesgang
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