SilentHill,

I found this post by a therapist on "Ask the Therapist" that may be useful and or helpful. We want to offer our support here. The title was "I am suicidal - why no one wants to help"

Here is the link: http://psychcentral.com/ask-the-ther...-want-to-help/

Please keep reaching out until you find someone. PM if you like.

Best
ev