I am feeling really down, I’m travelling and have to do 3 months of farm work in order to get my second year visa and am not sure I can do it. I’ve been in a toxic relationship that has completely broken me down and made me physically unwell and now I feel I have nothing left in me. I am so depressed living in a hostel surrounded by backpackers but feeling totally isolated because I’m feeling socially withdrawn. The only time I look forward to is when I can take a sleeping tablet at night. I am desperate to feel better because this is the worst I’ve ever been, before I got here I went a week without eating and couldn’t get out of bed for 3 days. The only reason I got up was because I had to check out of the motel. I am desperate to go home but if I do that I will not get my second year in Australia and that would devastate me. I am going to a GP tomorrow but I’m not sure what good it will do. Everything feels so bleak and I don’t know when it will get better, I guess I’m posting hoping for some support and help