after the sad news of the T who passed away recently off here... my T and I had that very chat.. I told him how scared I was of him dying. he understood. He said, unfortunately I am human, so things happen but I am gonna do my best to not die. He promised to reply to texts etc always now so I at least know he is still alive and ok.

It is a very scary thought. I can't fathom. I just had a huge loss in my life this year so it's on my mind often, honestly, even losing him as a T someday, seems like it would be like a death. I'm hoping badly we can keep in touch because I probably wont handle things well at all otherwise

Very understandable to feel this way