Thank you all for your responses. It's comforting to know I'm not alone in these feelings.
I still go back and forth about what to do, but I do really want to reach a level of acceptance where I can just accept what role my therapist plays in my life and not want anything more or fear being hurt or feel like crap because she isn't filling a role that has yet to be filled in my life. Just being content with what is available and grow from that... Easier said than done. But it's nice to feel like I'm not alone.