Today has been better than last night. I went for a jog this morning and did not fall. It's been a week since I last fell, which is probably the longest phase I've not fallen in a long time. Not walking on the sidewalk has made a big difference. After lunch, my daughter went with me to walk around the block, and she nearly tripped on the sidewalk because of how uneven it is (she's 10). There is a lot of settling in this area that affects houses and I think roads and sidewalks as well, not to mention the growth of large trees since our house was built in 1964. The settling is so bad, we have to have our foundation adjusted again next week; this is the 3rd time next since we bought the house around 13 years ago. This time, it's all around the house though, which is more than it was last time. Luckily, when we bought the house, it came with a lifetime foundation adjustment from the previous owner that transferred over to us, so we don't have to pay for it as long as that foundation company stays in business. I have decided for safety's sake to stop trying to walk on the sidewalk or get on the sidewalk to get out of the way of a vehicle and let them just drive around me. The road is much flatter.

I spent a good part of the day working on paring down my books, but it is hard and tiring work. I picked up lunch from a barbecue place my husband likes for Father's Day, but I ate too much. ED (eating disorder) voices are guilting me; plus, I just feel overfull. We all watched some funny videos on TV. I might work more on the books or call it a day and just read awhile.

I am going to have to go to ANOTHER of these swim parties July 8. One of the girls at the party last night is in my daughter's class (has been since kindergarten), and my husband and I know her parents because of that. Though our daughters get along, they have never really become close friends, so I hate that we always get invited there. The mom basically told us about the party as we were leaving last night, and my husband (who is more social than I am though still a bit of an introvert) said, sure, we could go. Ugh.

It is supposed to rain tomorrow, which makes me anxious about not being able to exercise. EDs are the gift that keeps on giving... You can recover from them, but you still don't get the voices and feelings of guilt to go away; you just have to choose not to act on it, at least that has been my experience. I feel horrible any time my weight has gone up at the doctor's office, even if I'm still underweight for my height.

Next week is very busy. I have doctors' appointments most days, either for me or my daughter. I have to take my daughter to the dentist tomorrow to look at a baby tooth that has been loose for months but is not falling out while the adult tooth is growing behind it. The baby tooth is practically horizontal in her mouth. She doesn't want to go and has a great fear of the dentist. When she was in around 3, her baby teeth needed extensive dental work, tons of crowns, etc. She was put to sleep for that, and thankfully, the adult teeth have done much better. The dentist said I was likely sick with something while pregnant that affected her tooth development to have so many bad baby teeth, but maybe to me it just felt like a cold or something very minor that I didn't even notice.

I see the pdoc as well as the neurologist and the following Monday, my primary care physician. I had made my annual wellness checkup with my PCP back in May, not anticipating I was going to have to discuss all these falling issues. And I need to get the osteopenia checked with a bone density scan; it's probably been 7 years or so now. Normally, the gynecologist would prescribe it, but they started doing well woman exams at my PCP's office, so I don't see a gynecologist any more. Lots of doctor appointments to get through...sigh.