No, don't think those things about yourself, cryingontheinside. You sound like a really good mum actually, and a good person, but, yes, I can understand those self negativities, especially when someone is triggering you - and that's all it is - your daughter was triggering the self negativities. You deserve a happy life as much as anyone, believe me. True, I'm not a parent at all, but your daughter sounds as if she has a lot of hurt and anger in her, that's all, not uncommon. One day she'll come to see she was wrong about you, and she will apologize - I firmly believe that. Is she quite young? Then, that's all it is. Sorry this happened to you though, cryingontheinside - very hurtful. Big hugs. You're doing well, tbh.