As far back as I can remember I’ve always had the most intense fear of being loved, emotions, and people in general. I remember so clearly being very little sitting in the back seat of the car every day and often having anxiety and fear of my parents saying something like they love me. Strange, I can’t understand why. My 1st day of kindergarten and most days thereafter I ran hiding behind the bush for fear of people, not wanting to be near people. In 1st to 3rd grade during play session I followed the lady around everywhere.
As an adult I really really really don’t like earth humans. Hugging seems nice but it's horrible when anyone hugs me. I wish some ETs would beam me up and take me away from this hell. People seem fake, like they're completely different than I am. That includes therapists.