So about 3 weeks ago a therapist figured out I have Dissociative Disorder NOS. So I have all these alters that are fragmented parts of myself that got stuck at certain ages and times in my life. It makes a lot of sense when I look back at the missing spots in my memories and how I can be different at different times and feel hijacked and at war with myself. Since I’ve become aware my alters or parts have become very “loud” and demanding . They want certain things. It’s been overwhelming and scary sometimes. I have 3 main ones including the core self and my core and my over functioning adult self try to keep the third in check because she tends to do impulsive and maladaptive things like cutting, drinking, binging etc. But I also have bipolar and ptsd and so we can’t always manage her. I feel like I have child parts but I can’t identify more than 2 so far and they get triggered and flood me or I get lots of flashbacks. It’s been a lot to take in. Yesterday they wouldn’t shut up so I got my notebook and just gave each of them the chance to write a letter. It was strange to see how the handwriting was so different from each one. I have a very young little before my sexual abuse and she just wanted to draw pictures of her/our pets at that time. I don’t know what I’m doing.