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Originally Posted by zbmom
So about 3 weeks ago a therapist figured out I have Dissociative Disorder NOS. So I have all these alters that are fragmented parts of myself that got stuck at certain ages and times in my life. It makes a lot of sense when I look back at the missing spots in my memories and how I can be different at different times and feel hijacked and at war with myself. Since I’ve become aware my alters or parts have become very “loud” and demanding . They want certain things. It’s been overwhelming and scary sometimes. I have 3 main ones including the core self and my core and my over functioning adult self try to keep the third in check because she tends to do impulsive and maladaptive things like cutting, drinking, binging etc. But I also have bipolar and ptsd and so we can’t always manage her. I feel like I have child parts but I can’t identify more than 2 so far and they get triggered and flood me or I get lots of flashbacks. It’s been a lot to take in. Yesterday they wouldn’t shut up so I got my notebook and just gave each of them the chance to write a letter. It was strange to see how the handwriting was so different from each one. I have a very young little before my sexual abuse and she just wanted to draw pictures of her/our pets at that time. I don’t know what I’m doing.
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if this was me the first thing I would do is ask my therapist questions like...
what do you mean by Dissociative Disorder NOS?
reason I would ask that question is because no where in the whole world is there a dissociative disorder called Dissociative Disorder NOS. The American Psychiatric Association made changes to the american mental health system including throwing out all NOS labeled disorders and adding to other existing disorders and making new dissociative disorders.. here is a list of dissociative disorders america has.
https://forums.psychcentral.com/diss...s-dsm-5-a.html
(the two general dissociation disorders are now called OSDD and UDD, UDD is used for emergency situations and gets changed OSDD has many different things in it, each has their own names but are not listed here, none are called DDNOS. they are names like macropsia, tachypsychia and other strange and long names. your therapist will have to tell you what that strange name is if they diagnose you with OSDD, its the rules for being diagnosed OSDD.)
I would ask the therapist to see their DSM 5 and ask them to show me what they mean by Dissociative Disorder NOS. after you know exactly what your therapist meant things wont be so confusing or scary anymore.
another thing I can tell you is that one thing that helped me with getting diagnosed was that my treatment providers told me nothing changes, I just now have a name for what has been happening all my life . the only thing thats going to change was my learning better coping tools and healing so that I no longer have the problems I have had all my life.
I am now an integrated person meaning all my alters have joined together with me to form one whole person again instead of alters.