After trying to build up the motivation to post on here for a few months I guess I'm doing it. I've been struggling for a very long time, openly accepting it for about 4 years now, it's funny how time works. I can barely remember the times where I wanted to get better, where I wanted to change and beat my problems, now I simply am waiting till a plan works out. Maybe I can change and get better but that's not my intent anymore. I won't go through the trouble of typing out my story and everything I've been through and done because it's just too much. Sorry for wasting everyone's time but I don't see a point in continuing this post

Tim