It’s just really frustrating isn’t it? One minute you’re super secure in the therapeutic relationship and the next the anxiety hits and you start doubting everything. I had a nightmare a while ago that I somehow found his notes about me and they were super critical and mean. I woke up feeling like he hates me or like I annoy the hell out of him. Even though I know it isnt rational (he is always very nice to me, sometimes keeps me over time by a generous amount) I couldn’t shake it off for ages. It’s like I constantly expect him to give up on me, or like I constantly expect to do something wrong that will make him fed up with me and terminate. It’s exhausting.