Hello Tim: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find PC to be of benefit. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Please don't feel as though you've wasted anyone's time here. This is what we're all here for. Yes, it does take some time to feel comfortable. But just take your time. There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. My best wishes to you...