the rupture looks as if it has passed. Today our conversation was very light and free, and i felt nice just talking as things came to my mind. i talked about school and my friends and just life, and not so much about how i'm obsessed with T. She also said that she is willing to give me a "transitional object" so i can keep it with me and hold on to it between sessions, so i can easily 'transition' between times i see her. she said she understands wanting to feel cared about and thought about and she thinks that giving me something small to help me feel her with me will help. she is right. so she is thinking of what it is she will give me. even though she wants me to reach out to other people and also be independent, she seems flexible with me calling her if i need her. i think overall her intentions are good and even though i felt so uncared about, i think she was doing it out of my best interest. and i think she really does care. and i think... i think she really likes me next time i go off on how i hate my T and how she doesn't care, remind me that she is a good T and shes committed to help me. one down side though, monday is presidents day and the office is closed... so a whole week without seeing her. but, now i feel if i need to, i can call, and that's ok. so, i love her.