Thank you everyone for your kind and caring replies.

I'm still confused but I'm healing too. Thank goodness for my therapist who fit me into her schedule for an extra session, and who has taken so many calls and been my metaphorical shoulder to cry on.

And thank goodness too, for great supportive people like all of you who took the time to read and reply. You made me feel so good.

Patty that movie sounds very good and I love Judy Dench from the Brit show "As Time Goes By". Thanks for the tip.

to all of you.