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Originally Posted by Peonie30
I unfriended my close friend in college on Facebook out of jealousy without her knowing the truth.
Here's the backstory:
I am a registered nurse and so is she. We just reconnected after five years since we graduated on 2011. I long since given up on my nursing profession from 2014 but she, on the other hand, didn't...so when she was accepted in a prestigious hospital, I got jealous...not because I still want to become a nurse, but because she finally made her dreams come true, while me on the other hand is bitter about life because of my illness...I know I'm a ****** person for dropping her without telling her the whole truth but I feel like in order for me to not have any competing feeling towards her that only damages my mental health, I decided to just end our friendship passive aggressively. I'm aware it's petty and selfish of me to do that.
My question now is: Is it understandable that I did such a thing to my former friend?
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First of all, I think that you are really brave to share this. I completely understand it, I've done similar things and felt horrible for doing it. The feelings of guilt and shame are always behind these actions because we know where these 'undesirable' impulsive actions come from. It is completely normal to feel frustrated and envious of someone who is in a 'better' position than ours (and where we want to be), however, to a certain degree.
That's why when it exceeds to a point that bothers you, I believe that the way out is to seek for help, be perseverant and persistent. What is done is done, but perhaps when you feel more comfortable you may contact your friend and be really open about it with her. If she is someone who is meant to be in your life, she will understand. For now, I wouldn't try to 'force' yourself to be highly social and pretend to be fine with certain situations, for that will only mask the issue. It takes a while, one day at a time, but things will get better!
