So I'm rock bottom and if the two people in my life aren't ignoring me because I'm depressed, they're blaming me/getting mad at me for being depressed. They start blaming me for not listening to their 'suggestions' that I never even asked for, as though everything is my fault. I dare bring up how I'm feeling and what I need and I'm in the wrong, yet again.

I'm unloved. I don't just feel that way, I truly am. I'm 5 seconds away from making a noose. I'm done with it all and I don't know what to do any more.