I guess I should also add that me being depressed (especially the winter months) has caused my partner to want to leave me and last winter he didn't speak with me for a week+ all because our therapist said another option besides leaving me was to take a "break". Of course, I didn't have a choice in the matter.

How do I hide how I feel from someone who knows my moods and patterns? Maybe I should take the initiative this year and just not talk to him October going into November. That'll probably be the ultimate reason why I'll always live alone.