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Originally Posted by DanceEngine7
Yes, by contacting him, I was looking to get back together. And I do think I placed him on a pedestal. I have a hard time with relationships and the way my life is at the moment I would have taken crumbs. I am extremely depressed at the moment. I was doing better with this whole thing a month or so ago. I was hardly thinking about him. then, not sure what happened, but I started up again.
I have no money, no support and no one to count on. I suffer from depression, anxiey, and at this point severe loneliness.
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I am very sorry you are in a deeply depressed state again and slid backwards.
Perhaps it would help if you could identify for yourself the fact that you are very lonely and depressed, there's nothing wrong with that, but that these are the drivers motivating you to want to be with him again?
Thing is, you need to see that going back to him is not going to solve the issues you face. Going to a therapist & getting on meds instead are two great steps that would help.
Depression needs to be treated by (ideally) seeing a therapist and taking meds. To Divine's question, did you stop taking your meds?
The other thing is, I don't know if you have taken any steps towards trying to improve your life situation? I think you could use some help with this. Many people here have made suggestions to help, but I don't know if you have pursued any of them? Can you try to take steps towards improving your life instead?