the part of the post that jumped out at me was:

I used to enjoy it, so maybe feeling depressed is making it harder to enjoy? Maybe I just don't have the patience anymore.

or maybe you want to move on.. maybe their's something else you want to do in sted.

can you think of anything?. anything you would prefer?

if indeed your depression is caused by your life, let me say this:

nothing lasts for ever and things will get better for you.

keep posting here if it helps