Well, I also dated a couple of married men and did not know think I was too wise about it. I imagined how it would be to be their wife and thought it would be smarter to end such relationships ASAP. I did not know they were married until I figured them out. I felt bad about the situation. I fell for one of them too. I really thought he was single until he would disappear then reappear then disappear. I am not too bright but figured him out. All he wanted was sex. I cut him off and the last time he sent me a message saying that he was unhappy I was not interested in seeing him for sex anymore. What?!!!! I was disgusted with him and with myself. I started seeing other men until I was able to forget about him totally. He is still a contact on social media but I ignore him. I had other men who wanted affairs but I blocked them on social media before anything happened. I am happier now meeting men who are single and available. I believe married men who have affairs are liars. They never tell the truth as you have found out. Why would you be with such men who you can't trust? Having affairs with married men is not worth it. I don't know what you are seeking from men. However, married men are just that married and taken. If you are a mistress who is being supported by a married man, then, well, I can understand your dilemma about letting go. Besides this, what is the point of getting used as a piece of meat then thrown away like trash?