I had an affair with a married man. We have not seen each other in 6 months. it was very intense and I unexpectedly fell for him. I knew what I was getting into from the beginning but never expected it to be like this.

After my behavior of wanting to end the affair, not wanting to end it, to getting jealous and possessive he finally said his wife found out something and he had to lay low for awhile. I know he made up the story to end it with me. Even though he never officially ended it.

He texted me daily when we were together, but as soon as he told me his wife found something, he started texting every two day, then down to three, then it just completely stopped. I tried contacting him after that and really didn't get much other than his wife was watching him.

Recently I tried again by wishing him a happily holiday and all I got was thank you (no how are you? or anything) That right there is proof he NEVER wants to see me again and it hurts. I feel sad all over again, not as bad, but now I do KNOW it is over.

It is sad to know that someone you thought felt something towards you no longer wants nothing to do with you. I KNOW he will never leave wife and never asked or expected him to. I just don't usually feel this way about guys and that's what hurts. Someone who told you that cared about you, someone who gave you attention, and someone you had amazing chemistry with and it just goes to nothing! He has no idea I felt like this, i always tried to hide it so I could keep seeing him. I would give anything to be with him just one more time. My life sucks on top of this, I am extremely lonely and my life is in complete shambles. I am extremely depressed today, I can't even believe how awful I feel.