I guess the regrets are pulling me down again - I feel that I’ve missed a lot relationship wise..... I know going back ain’t possible. It’s hard to blank the intense loneliness and perceived unfairness of it all. I just don’t know who to talk to - done tons of therapy and that really hasn’t helped much. Not religious so that’s out. I get angry at everybody for having people in their lives. Even now at this late date there is nothing to hang onto - the memories just make me sad and the lack of guarantees are like a cancer. I can’t help but feel that my life has been the loneliest existence ever.... sorry 🤗