I'm sorry J bug that you are scared and hurting!!!

Yes - today i could not tell my t when she called how i was really doing. i don't think i was even at choice about not telling her - the surprise of her call and the fact that i always hide how i am blocks out anything from my head but "i'm fine". i really wasn't fine after she called and SI'd. She even told me to call if i got worse, but i couldn't call. =( Which makes me feel worse about the theraputic relationship. I don't want to be a burden, but i am supposed to reach out....

I do hope you'll be alright and can enjoy your time with your sister!!
Kiya