I think It's time I make up a good list of it instead of ranting all the time:
1. I always feel trapped, nowhere to go once I start the treatment
2. I always feel they are against me
3. I don't like being dominated
4. I don't like being a subordinate
5. It takes too much time wasted on things I do not want to go over
6. Unsolicited advice regarding things I never asked advice for
7. Feeling judged and scorned, rather than understand my behaviors. By the way, some members would, instead of helping me with the main issues, comment on small matters such as words I'd use such as . I don't like to be picked on small matters which have nothing to do with the main topic.
8. I can sniff fakeness. I can sniff a fake empathetic nod, I can sniff sarcasm behind words. Those are not red flags. Those are black flags
9. I can see "behind the scenes" so to speak. One therapist actually managed to positively influence me in some mild manipulation which only succeeded after a few hours. When I noticed the influence, this came to my mind:
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(If you're unfamiliar with the series then it's said in a playful way, not a hostile way)
A greater example of "seeing behind the scenes" is when I commented on a different therapist's unnamed approach. I told them "I like it when you talk in a way I can understand". They then gave a "Oh... he's GOOD..." kind of nod to themselves after I said that. We knew it would not work out after I said that.

Now I will note this - there were so far VERY FEW therapists who did not go through the red lines, I can count them with one hand. However I am still very concerned about the procedures. I am afraid it will only pull me further down

Any advice will be appreciated. I started noticing I am getting less replies lately. I know I seem out of help. Believe me, I see it all about myself and I am both frustrated and just through with it. Events have set me off badly. It's also about how I could've handled myself better, but I guess I was too selfish and self-absorbed because of all the stress