Do you think you have a hard time relating to, trusting, and/or respecting other people? I am not trying to judge, just wondering based on your posts and concerns that seem to center around this (feeling judged, like they are against you, not wanting to be dominated, etc). It would seem to me that this could make interacting with people such as your T, and therapy in general, more difficult which would impact your ability to get your needs met. Do you think you play a part in the difficulty that you are having with therapy? It would seem to me to be a bit of a catch 22 if you don't want to address these types of issues in therapy or work to build a relationship with a T that you can trust, but they then impact the ability of your therapist to help you. I don't mean to suggest you have to have a really close relationship, but basic trust is needed.