In 5 days, I have my consulting appt with some neuropsych lady who wants to reevaluate me for possible schizophrenia or schizoaffective. I'm a bit nervous about it all because I don't know what to think or expect.

The reeval is free, so why not? Might as well do it. Would be interesting to know what I REALLY have, and to see if I need special treatment, even though treatment between BP and sza is more or less the same. I just want to know, I guess. Curiosity.

I also don't want people thinking I'm manic if I'm hallucinating. My therapist let it slip that she thought I was manic when hallucinating for 5 weeks before upping my antipsychotic dose. (I was hallucinating for 5 weeks because I had no pdoc at the time.) As I mentioned before, my therapist was awesome enough to hook me up with a temporary pdoc in the same office. Life saver -- literally.

I just want peace of mind. Otherwise, I'm doing decent, but not 100% good. My grandma in hospice has been always on my mind.