I waiver between finding you a bit scary and also wondering if you might be on the autism spectrum. Some of the way you speak reminds me very much of my own brother (who can certainly also come across as scary) who has PDD-NOS. You seem very inflexible and quite black-and-white in your thinking. As well as paranoid and narcissistic.

I do think you hit one nail on the head here:
You see your therapists (and, it seems, most other people as well) as against you. That is a huge barrier in therapy and in other human relationships.

Edit to add:
anyone who does not 100% agree with you, you seem to see as against you - and you insult them/their character.

Problem:
The point of therapy is to challenge your current way of thinking -- to find the cognitive dissonance and challenge it, point it out. That is what a therapist does.

As long as you see any challenge to your current way of thinking as a threat or an attack, you will not improve and will continue to fail in therapy.