I don't drink coffee because there is something in the coffee bean that upsets my stomache. I do drink caffene pop and non-caf pop. I was doing pretty good for awhile, I have maybe 3 caf. beverages a week; so I guess that is not too bad. Every so often I feel like my heart jumps into my throat and "wiggles" around (usually lasting .02 seconds), enough to start messing with my anxiety. I'm sure it is because of stress, but since I got that feeling while I had atrial-fib, everytime it happens I think about that scary point of my life then it bugs my anxiety a lot. I am getting better, I have not had a full blown anxiety attack for quite awhile, but sometimes I still get my moments where I cant figure out if I am moving foreward with the anxiety or backward. Then after a little while I realised I was just thinking "in the moment" and after its over I realise I never took a step backward, I was just the anxiety toying with my.
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Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there, I did not die. R.I.P. Bandit 7-12-08 I love you I miss you.
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