Of course I can.


In brief (I cannot write in detail or the list of my problems with my parents would be a book) my mother has severe, untreated mental health conditions. She grew up in a very "poor environment" (again, it's another made-up story of hers, I will never believe it, my grandmother is one of the nicest people I have ever met) and so she seemingly could not get a government job here in our country. She is very misanthropic and manipulative, also very maladaptive, anxious, and irritable. She doesn't know how to live or how to parent, it's just not my experience, everyone of my relatives tells me that. And my father, he grew up in a very poor environment economy-wise. So he didn't have the basic privileges needed to grow up properly, so now I understand his greed for money.

My mother and father, since the day I was born, I feel like they swore to God or something like that. They wanted me to be in a good position in the government. So they went to such extent that

- I wasn't allowed to play outside
- I wasn't allowed to leave the house on my own (I am still not)
- I wasn't allowed to make friends
- I was subjected to a massively terrible judgement about life and society. They told me everyone is evil. That everyone in the world will jump at my throat. So I shouldn't go outside aside from "when I needed" which means school and college. Outside of that? Nope, I would "surrender to the vices of the world", they feared that I would act NORMAL. That I will hit on girls and do drugs. Now, as far as my understanding goes , hitting on girls and doing drugs is a normal phase of developmental phase. There's nothing wrong with that.

Now, here are some more points.
- I wasn't allowed to visit my relatives
- My relatives aren't allowed to visit me.

Now, here's their What-You-Can-Do list
- Watch TV day and night.
- Read books.

That's all. Aside from sleeping, brushing teeth, bathing (although my mom doesn't like me bathing, because of "shortage of water.")

I can use the internet for a while on our PC, but that's it. Substituent for their first point on the list.

I am sorry if it's hard to understand but I put it the best way I could.

I have asked every one of my relatives whether or not that something can be done about my life. They all say I should be patient. That's a nicer way of saying "You will DO get freedom to do whatever you want, but it's still years away." And even that's not guaranteed (in my opinion) because I have developmental disorders. And that some scars on the brain never heal. Like I will never get to be a good at my job. Unless of course something magical happens (it happened last week, you may know, Dnester) and I suddenly get my cognition back long enough to be a successful scientist.

I can do other non-science related jobs with my B.S in zoology, but I don't want that. Any job can be hard with a cognition, abuse history and things like that. So I don't see a reason not to aim at post-doc research in neurology/psychiatry.