You and I have kind of similar things going on.

My ex’s girlfriend has been doing very creepy things to me. But a lot of weird things have happened some which were legitimately her, and some I’m not so sure. She sent me that chocolate fake poo in a box which said “Eat sh**” My ex would never do it. The thing cost $15 plus shipping and he’s too cheap; N and I both compared notes about how he barely could be bothered to pay for a dinner for us. Plus, he hasn’t responded to anything from me or contacted me since 3/6, even legit questions asking if he’d been tested in all this mess so I could bring the info to my doc. I began receiving more weird mail after that (you may have seen the thread), and continue to. Only the chocolate, and a packet of brochures on psychosis and schizophrenia (wrong dx, moron) I’m sure were her. The rest are super weird, and nothing that I’ve received in all my years of living on my own...but they’re so ambiguous I don’t know what she’d be trying to tell me by sending them. I think she probably just signed me up for a bunch of random mailing lists. Ooooooooh. You bad. *eye roll* I also had someone attempt to get into my private Instagram the other morning (I have two). My phone has the password memorized, I haven’t been in that account in over a week, and yet I received an email asking if I were having trouble getting in. It’s a huge leap to say it’s her...but she IS that weird.

Point is that all of these shenanigans have served to do only one thing, and that is make me a little paranoid, which was probably the purpose, and keep me focused on J. He doesn’t care about me. I don’t care about him. But, the more I have to deal with her idiocy, the more I’m reminded that he had a damn girlfriend while he was encouraging me to take an assignment in Tennessee, while he was telling me how safe he felt with me, while he was telling me I made him feel that he could finally be open blah blah blah. And I don’t want to think about it.

I have wondered if certain accounts on here were him. I have wondered if certain accounts on another site were him. I have wondered if he were stalking my public Instagram, all while telling myself that I didn’t care, that it didn’t matter. Reality is that he’s not—he doesn’t think of me. And I know this might be upsetting, but it is dwelling. I know I’m doing it, too.

Even if the account were his, what is gained by responding to it rather than walking away? I mean, I probably would have done the same thing *hangs head* But that’s why I’m asking.

PS I haven’t read through the whole thread so if all of this has been asked and answered, I apologize!