i know the fear isnt reality based and stuff n i know it will take some time to overcome this fear but i hate having this kind of stuff ontop of my psychosis and psychosis induced derealisation. Sometimes it just gets too much for me and it dosnt help with unsupportive doctors who wont try n help me with the medication side of things but the problem is i cant afford a better doctor to treat me. I am going to a government run treatment place for my psychosis n they have basically dont know what to do to treat the derealisation since the anti psychotic medications seem to have stopped working. It just really anoys me that the things i used to be able to do without thinking like going to the train station or being in places with high roofs seem to be such a panic inducing situation now. Not being able to drive due to the derealisation is a real prick of a thing but i am starting driving lessons again on friday even though i already have my licence i thought i need to try n find ways to deal with this stuff because it dosnt look like its going to be going away in a hurry.

Roy.