Almeda, Yes a very good session if not slightly painful. What i was feeling as I read it was my own pain and frustration too. That wanting something so very much but knowing we will never get it totally, never be merged with it completely, never ever be in that place of total unity again, alas what we are feeling is the pain of what we as humanbeings all have and that is "freedom from", though it should be beautfiul it is also painful a very paradoxical feeling. the only hope you can have is that when the time to end therapy comes, you will be in a place where freedom doesn't appear such a threat.